The 6th anniversary of Chloe's death had come and found me reflecting on what will be next- will I be taken deeper into some new learning? I have been feeling myself being drawn to learn more about "connection."
One day as I stood outside, I looked up into the sky and said, "Chloe, where are you?' I suddenly heard her say, "where is dad, Dillon and Hope?" At that time Hope was in Peru, Dillon was in Virginia and Herm was in Ohio. It led me to think about how I was connected to them. I realized the same connection I had to them right in that moment was the same connection I had with Chloe. We are connected in our spirits. We are such spiritual beings- that is really how we remain together. I couldn't see any of them, I couldn't touch them, but I could feel them. When I miss Chloe I need to close my eyes and see that very powerful connection. I need to meet her in that place that is neither here nor there. But I can experience this same connection with loved ones who are at a distance. I can visualize our connection and our love if I just let go of the physical plane for that moment.
I sat down to paint and by the end of the day I had drawn an uncanny likeness of Chloe and her sister sitting on the top of a mountain looking down into a valley. A strong presence came over me and I asked Chloe if there was something she was wanting to say to Hope. The words came immediately,
"I know a place that is neither here nor there...a place where you and I can share...meet me there."
I have since come to understand what that means. At times when I become overwhelmed with missing Chloe, I find a quiet spot and close my eyes. I start by releasing all things physical, my body, Chloe's, all of her possessions left behind and everything I own. I release my need to have her in that form. I let myself go to her and I see her coming to me. We are both in that space in between anything else. And there, we exist together.